Sometimes I feel like the people around me don’t really know who I am. They think I’m this strong girl who is outspoken and opinionated and doesn’t tolerate BS. I do believe I am strong, I’ve been through a lot in life and always try my best to keep my head up and look for a positive, but the rest isn’t who I am. There was a time in my life when I wasn’t as happy as I could be and sometimes I felt like I was just going through the motions of life and not really living life. My unhappiness with my situation made me someone who I wasn’t because I was just so over living the way I was. All I wanted was to be happy and have a happy family.
I was fortunate enough to be given a second chance at happiness. I feel as though all the pieces of me that I had lost for a period of time are back. I have a better understanding of who I am, what I want, and what I need in life. I am not a loud and outspoken person; that was who I was during that period of my life to protect myself and protect my feelings. It was my way of coping.
If I had to choose one word to describe myself it would be sensitive, really sensitive. My feelings can be easily hurt and I can sometimes misinterpret things, which is why communication is very important to me. I have learned that if something is upsetting me, the best thing for me is to talk about it, and talk about it some more if I need to. I am lucky to have found someone to spend the rest of my life with who understands me and fully accepts me and lets me be me.
I sometimes struggle with my sensitivity, but it is something I am learning to embrace. I don’t always like my sensitivity (like when I take something to heart when I probably shouldn’t) but it’s who I am and I love who I am. I’m far from perfect, but I’m being the best version of me that I know how!