Finn

Finn is my frozen embaby. This embaby was created when I did my first round of IVF and Finn was one of 3. When my marriage fell apart and my ex husband and I went our separate ways, Finn was still frozen. Destroying Finn was not an option but after being given heartbreaking news (that it was unlikely a family would want to adopt 1 embryo) by the only adoption agency in my country that facilitated embryo adoptions, I felt defeated, I felt that there was no other options and my heart was broken.  I prayed and prayed about Finn and cried out many times to God. I begged God to save this precious life, to intervene, to do something. I wrote publicly about it because I was hurting and needed a release. And by God’s grace, He led a wonderful family to my blog and they reached out. They wanted my precious embaby. They wanted to give this precious life the same chance I wanted to give it. They were willing to adopt my one precious embaby and have Finn be a part of their family. I cried that night. I thanked God and cried some more. Tears of happiness, tears of thankfulness, and tears of gratefulness.

It’s been a few months since this beautiful family first reached out to me. After getting to know this family, my heart felt at ease and I knew this was God’s plan. God answered my cries. God is good!

As the day nears that Finn will leave my family and join their family, I am getting nervous and excited. Nervous because I so badly want this to result in a live birth for Finn’s new family and excited because I am so hopeful that it will! I pray and pray and pray and I believe this has been God’s plan all along, it may even be the reason why I felt that I needed to start a blog, not just to try to help other infertility warriors and use it as a coping tool for myself, but because God knew all along that Finn belonged to another family and my blog was how God was going to introduce us.