Christmas Angels

I love Christmas. It is by far my favourite holiday and favourite time of the year. I find that with Christmas decorations all around and Christmas music playing that there just seems to be more joy around me.

This year, we are starting a new tradition. Our community has Christmas Angels and these Christmas Angels are children in our community whose families are not able to provide Christmas gifts so the community steps in and purchases gifts that are then delivered to the families by the fire department. When I found out our community does this I was so excited! I think it is a great way to give and a great message for our children to learn from. Every year, beginning this year, we will be picking Angels off the tree to help give them a very Merry Christmas. This year, we picked 3 children and as a family, we had so much fun shopping for them. G is still too young to understand what is going on, but J understood that these special toys were for boys and girls in our community whose families reached out and asked for help.

Our Christmas Angels reminded me just how fortunate and blessed C and I are and I pray that our Christmas Angels feel just as blessed this Christmas because they are so very loved by their family.

Currently I am

I've seen a few blogs with these types of posts so I thought I would give them a try...not sure how often I will do them yet, but here's my first one...it was rather fun to write!

Currently, I am...

Enjoying: The weather. Normally by now we have snow. I was reminded of this from one of my social media accounts when a memory of J popper up all bundled up in his snow suit playing outside in the snow.

Feeling: Very overwhelmed. The thought of paying for a wedding and IVF has been worked up.

Wishing: For a miracle...which I think all infertility mamas are.

Loving: My boyfriend! He has been so supportive the past few days and it's a really good feeling to know that I have him to lean on and that when I do not feel strong, I have him to be strong for me.

Hating: How emotional I am this week. PMS wreaks havoc on my emotions a week before my period and these past few days haven't been the greatest. Everything is making me cry!

Anticipating: Putting up our Christmas tree this weekend! I can't wait to watch J decorate it and the boys to enjoy it!

Watching: Survivor and The Amazing Race...I'm a reality TV junkie!

J's Mommy

I am J’s mommy and I am very proud of it. J is adopted but that does not define who he is. He is a happy little boy who fills my heart with so much love. He is my son. He is a gift from God, a gift God trusted me with. God had a special plan for both J and I and out of everyone in this world, God chose me to be J’s mommy. How special is that? I was handpicked to be J’s mommy and God had an intricate plan to make that happen.

I know a lot of families who struggle with infertility look into adoption and then run the other way because of how expensive it can be. But public adoptions do not cost anything.

I know a lot of families who struggle with infertility look into adoption and run the other way because they know it won’t fill the void of carrying a child and experiencing a pregnancy. I will admit this is true. As a woman, I had a strong need to carry a child and experiencing a pregnancy.

I know a lot of families who struggle with infertility look into adoption and run the other way because they want a biological child. This I cannot understand. J is just as much my son as G is. It doesn’t matter that J is adopted and G is not. They are both my sons and my heart is filled with love for both of them. When I look at J, I see only my son, my red haired, blue eyed darling little boy who is mine.

What I am trying to say is it doesn’t matter how a child comes into your life whether it be through a pregnancy, adoption, or they showed up in a basket with a note, that child will complete you in ways you never knew existed. They are your precious gift from God to love and adore.

I am honoured to be J’s mommy and so proud! It is because of my two little boys that I am a mommy and they are my entire world.